4th Sept 2026 Rant

Hi. 

my father finally discharged from IJN today. Alhamdulillah! 

tho some sad updates: his heart is like 36% working now and his kidney is like borderline almost dialysis-stage. still tho, he's well and that's what matters most. he needs to monitor his water intake to only 1L per day only. 

it's actually hard for me right now to accept this news. but i have to remain like everything is normal. i just need to pray very very hard that Allah will let us borrow him longer than we wish. 

for now, he is here and i'll wish for nothing but more memories with him. 

so in another news, i got my blood tests result. i did mentioned before that i would do some blood test on Thursday the 4th Sept, and so i did. i used the RM50 package by Klinik Dr Prevent at Kota Kemuning. so the doctor took my blood, my urine and also did ultrasound to check my kidney. my kidney is okay and my urine is ok. apparently, the blood test showed that i have low hemoglobin. i have mild anemia. also, i have a slightly higher cholesterol LDL. so i need to eat more oats, lean red meat, more red bayam. and also more cardiovascular exercise. you might see me windowshop more after this. i need to reach 10k per day and windowshop is my briskwalk. 

i did not expect the mild anemia. but maybe that's the reason why i was fatigue. 

so after my father got discharged from IJN, i brought Alena and Alda to Lalaport and Lot 10. had Kagura ramen at Lot 10 and bought some food at Don Donki. then we went to Lalaport and i end giving Alena an early birthday gift: an ATEEZ's album. luckily the album is not expensive as during my time. i feel like i cannot disappoint another fangirl as i was also a fangirl before. but wow, there really wasn't any TVXQ or Super Junior's merch there. wow wow. 

and that is all. 

thank you for reading. 

3rd Sept 2026 post.

Hi. 

so i'm in my blogging mood. i blame the new keyboard for this tablet. 

so what happened after the last post, which was like 2 days ago? 

so my father got warded in IJN cos he has pleural effusion. i'm too lazy to google the right term but that's what he has now. his heart got weak so his heart didn't pump the blood properly and that affected his kidney. and kidney pushed the water into his lungs instead. so he was wheezing the last few days. the doctor wants to monitor him in the next 3 days so got warded la. 

so i took EL and had to take care of him last night. taking care of sick people in their critical stage is so so exhausting. but no matter, all for the healing stages. 

another news is that i will have a new boss who replaced my bestie colleague. and that person hates me. so yeah, i'm gonna be like the calmest person in the room for the next few months. we'll see how she's leading my workplace cos she cannot even lead her own committee and now she wants to lead another person's committee cos she thinks our committee is not doing well. or whatever. she sucks. badly. 

so now i'm at TRX, at Boucake Japanese Cafe. quite expensive but i choose cravings than being kemut. so yeah, bye bye RM70+++. and you know what, i have blood test tomorrow. 

oh. i ordered the Lunch Set which cost RM40 and also their famous souffle pancake,which is like RM34. ha ha. biorla mahal. asalkan happy. 

ok Wagyu Spaghetti Meatball dah sampai. 

ok makan dulu. bye bye. kalau rajin i tambah lagi. 

(continue)

ok i'm back. i had the one i craved the most, the Pancake. and it was huge!! i had to ask Alisa to come fast cos i don't think i can finish it alone and i also ordered the pasta. 

HUGE!

and yummsss. better eat it with another person tho. i was contemplating to takeaway or not, but as someone who hates to waste food, i requested the shop to pack it, together with the chocolate and also the banana pieces. they said okayyy. how nice. 

Alisa wasn't in a good mood as the PR firm for the place she had to collab with got upset with her for something unnecessary. and she got mad cos she talked in malay with the customers. erm yeah, this is at TRX, but still..... nak racist ke tew??? 

you know, work has not been fun this year. which is quite sad when the majority in it are so bloody nice. but hey, if the higher management being like devil, we just have to swallow and hope that we won't ever work directly with these people. 

ok now.

see you when i'm in the mood again.

1st Sept 2026 random post

Hi.

I'm blogging on a whim. 

My nail is broken, just to let you know. it's painful. a pain in the finger kind-of-pain. tbh it's not great. but we move on. 

i just bought a new keyboard for my tablet. this is a second one cos the first one was broken. it happened when i couldn't clicked the T. and so it broke, and i threw it away and bought this cute pink one. the previous one was a white, with colourful blinking lights. thought that function is useless. 

i dunno who will read this, but who cares. maybe my current and future employees will check. in case they wanna check my background or to find out my secret or something. 

the only secret they'll get is that i read adult mangas and webtoons. and why is that? cos i'm an adult. a wise and a fun adult who has her own hobby. just cos i'm single, doesn't mean i don't care about sex even though it's an illustration kind. 

anyway, life has not been okay, work-wise. my boss/work bestie got demoted to clean other department's shit. bravo to those who decide that and replace her with someone that is still wet behind the ears. i like the new boss but i need someone to look up to, not someone that i had to assist when his salary is way higher than me. he should support me, and not the other way round. but employers, right? they think they know better than us. 

...should've ask our opinion instead of relying on one person's word. i mean, we worked with our hands, not our mouths. so better come and check instead of rely on someone else's words. 

so that's one thing. 

i just notice that my healing process is by laughing, and not the kind that 'go to nature' kind of healing. i mean, the weather is hot and i want a place to cool me down instead of making me the responsible one. i had fun during the Tok Bak Family Day at Melaka last weekend. so so fun. i laughed so hard. good vibes all around. i know my relatives better. i had so many prejudice but during the event, i found out that some of them are so nice and i'm the evil one to even think badly about them. that's why we need more of this family day again. so that we can have fun, love while we still can. 

oh i baked the Chrissy Teigen's Banana Choc Cake.

still sedap giler.

ok now i dunno what to type. 

bye then. 

good night! 

hey

Hi all. 

Haven't blog for many many years. Though my Instagram is basically a blog with the long post there. 

Anyway, I feel like typing cos I have Xiaomi Tab 7 that has cute casing and cute keyboard. And a white mouse too. (I just ordered a cute mousepad cost RM3 from shopee last night). So now I'm blogging. 

I dunno if anybody still reads this blog but hey, let me rant. I feel like an author now. I'm active in Instagram now and only retweets things in twitter. I am a silent reader in Thread tho I occasionally commented some posts. But you know, I need some longer place to rant so I'm back to blogging.

Tbh I started blogging cos there is this situation that feels kind of high school happening among the group members now. Won't reveal who but that person is smart enough to know I am talking about her. But if you really read this, I just wanna say: nothing. 

So I am now 36. The last 5 years, I didn't feel as old as this time. This is when I feel '"omg I have only 4 years to be 40!!!" 

I'm in the best place in my life right now. I feel content. I am a responsible adult, who does not have the time to care about another nonsense except interesting gossip. I'm very busy right now. I dunno how I'm coping but I am actively working. i do rest at night and also during weekend. But I am super busy. I feel like work just added up all the time and now I feel like I have things that I might have missed. But that's a work matter. And so, cos of this busy-ness, I try to make time for myself. I socially go outside with my close friends or my family. Playing tourist at KL or playing cafe lover at TTDI. And this is how I managed my mental health. I will make an effort to socially be active. Though I choose to hang out with my friends instead of finding some online 'friends'.

That's basically my life right now: work, hang out, sleep, try to eat healthy. 

Btw I am trying to eat healthy by eating smoothie with anlene milk, oat and dates. I did have some glow up 😂😂. And I am trying reduce my dessert intake. Those who knows me might know my favourite place to eat cake and right now I am trying to make the visit to eat there at least once in 3 months. It was actually working until my birthday arrived and I got 4 cakes in 2 days. I need to finish those cakes fast cos they are delicious and expensive so I think I might have some sugar spike now. Though not in the bad range yet or else I'll be in an unhealthy mode. I am still fat tho. Overweight fat tho, not obese fat yet. 

Wow my sentences are so messed up. Oh well.

I'm blanking now. Might blog again.

What happened today? My boss gave me an extra RM10 angpow. 😆

Bye.